Relationships sink ships

So 10.31pm. Still 2/5/08.
Just got off the phone with Aiden..
His friend lost his fucking wallet at the BMTH+IKTPQ show at The Den, Castle Hill
Soo that sucks.
And its got money and his id cards and all this shit in it.. and his really frustrated about it..
And we started to talk about the whole thing we were talking about through texting.

This time i cried.
Cause i was right about what i thought he meant.
Me using him for his money.
And that hurt to hear him say it. But i FUCKING DIDNT MEAN IT THAT WAY!
AND I WOULF FUCKING NEVER EVER EVER EVER USE HIM ONLY FOR HIS MONEY. I CANT BELIEVE HE WOULD THINK THAT.
I tried to hide that i was crying.
I just couldnt stop.. It was a good thing he didnt know though.. Cause he couldnt hear over the music.
so i eventually stopped. and i tried to explain by what i meant when i said it. And again, i was lost with my words.
FUCKING HELL.
He said that this topics been on his mind since saturday.
UHHHHHHHH.
IM FUCKING FRUSTRATED.
His doing a bang up job at making me feel guilty. I didnt even meant for it to sound the way it did.

And he vented to his friends Tea and Sarah.. They probably think im a bitch now.
Greattttttttttttttt.
He said he would have vented to me ....and he stopped there but i knew what he was trying to say.. He was trying to say he'd vent to me but i was going to be one of the things he was venting about.
RELATIONSHIPS ARE HARD.
Theyre never simple.
But i want to try and keep it simple. No fucking misunderstandings.
No fucking bullshit.

These blogs seem to be all about Aiden.
And i dont do it on purpose but its just i think about him everyday and his on my mind all the time. And this blog is a day to day thing.
Buuuuut i'll try and reduce all the Aiden talk.

LETS JUST HOPE THINGS GET BETTER.
Gotta call Aiden now.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Goodbye&Goodnight.

♥
Lenny.