Its been a long time my friend...

ITS BEEN A MONTH AND ONE DAY!
Since ive blogged.
I forgot my password! and cbb resetting it. but write now im soooooooooooo in the mood to blog my butt off.

My lifes having its ups and down at the momment.
And right now its having its down momment.
I was chatting to Aiden on msn.
When my sister called and said that shes working on thursday day. So i couldnt use her as an excuse to go see aiden.
And i said that shes coming over friday and were going out friday night.
Soo theres a chance i might seee him friday.
He said thats terrible news cause he was so looking forward to seeing me on Thursday night.

FUCK. I always feel like im doing the wrong in this relationship.
HIS ALWAYS MAKING ME FEEL THAT.
Its hard you know.

So its going to be another day till i see him.
IF HE STILL WANTS TO FUCKING SEE ME.
IM SO FUCKING ANGRY!!
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG!?
I really miss him too.
And that i'll take every chance to see him.
Yeah thats our conversation.

(5:01 PM) LENNY. ♥:	Soooo my sister called, and she saiiiiid that shes working tomorrow. !!! But she said shes coming over on friday night.. and that were going out.
(5:01 PM) would you mind s:	do u mean
(5:01 PM) would you mind s:	im really
(5:01 PM) would you mind s:	worried
(5:01 PM) would you mind s:	now
(5:02 PM) LENNY. ♥:	I dunno if i can see you tomorrow! Cause my sisters working and i cant say i'll be at hers tomorrow for the whole day.. But i might be able to see you at night on friday night!!!
(5:02 PM) LENNY. ♥:	AT NIGHT TIMEEE!!
(5:02 PM) LENNY. ♥:	So is that good or bad news?
(5:04 PM) LENNY. ♥:	Buubb?
(5:05 PM) would you mind s:	would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: its terrible news would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: i feel would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: another day would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: fuck would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: am i seeing u on the weeekend?
(5:05 PM) LENNY. ♥:	!!! Umm my friends party is on saturday..
(5:05 PM) would you mind s:	ur going to a party?
(5:06 PM) LENNY. ♥:	yeah. But still dont know if i can cause it starts at 7.
(5:06 PM) would you mind s:	woah
(5:06 PM) would you mind s:	why didnft you tell me
(5:06 PM) LENNY. ♥:	I just got told today
(5:06 PM) would you mind s:	hmm k
(5:06 PM) would you mind s:	this is shit
(5:06 PM) LENNY. ♥:	Yeahhh.
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:	Another day
(5:07 PM) would you mind s:	im going to go cry okay.
(5:07 PM) would you mind s:	ill be back later
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:	NOOOO BUBB!!
(5:07 PM) would you mind s:	yes
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:	:(
(5:07 PM) would you mind s:	bye ily
(5:07 PM)	would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to is now Offline
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:	AIDEN!!!!!
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:

And his still not talking to me on msn.
Tell me people!
What the hell did i do wrong?
I am so confused.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I AM ON THE FUCKING VERGE OF FUCKING BREAKING DOWN.
IN FACT I ALREADY FUCKING AM,.
WHY THE FUCK DOES HE DO THIS TOO ME,

I miss him.
he misses me.
And yet he goes offline and cries and doesnt talk to me or reply to any of my txts.
THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT WHEN YOUR FUCKING MISSING SOMEONE IS TOO TALK TO THEM!!
NOT FUCKING NOT TALK TO THEM CAUSE YOUR GOING TO MISS THEM THE DAY THEY CANT SEE YOU.


WHY IS THIS ALL HAPPENING.
I CANT DEAL WITH THIS RIGHT NOW.
My fucking parents know about aiden.
And this is all so much.
His not freaking helping either.
Always getting angry at the little things i say wrong or didnt tell him about.
Im saying "Fuck" awefully alot.
Im just really upset and confused.
DOES HE HAVE A FREAKEN REASON TO BE FUCKING UPSET!?
He expects too much from me.
And if i dont meet his expectations..
THEN...............................................................................................





*cries*.
*dies*.