Dear God.
I need your help.
My life is falling apart.
PLEASE HELP ME.
"Send me an angel from the heavens above"
Guide me along the lines of happiness, strength, hope, wealth and most importantly,
Please give me my family back.
God,
Please dont let me go.
Amen.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
"Kiss Me, Beneath The Milky Twilight"
Yet again Elena has gotten me into blogging. lol thanks babe. oh And i also needed this to vent..
Idk. I feel like i cant talk to anyone.. And i know people are there for me, but theyre either offline or i dont have their number.
I wish i could just get away from this troublesome life for a bit.
Today, school.
Hospitality was good. Im liking it because Im doing good. lol But not so good in english,. Im afraid about the half yearlys for english. Because i suck at essay writing. So ELENA!! TUTOR ME!! PLEEEEEEEEEEEEASEE
LOL
Then Aiden called me to meet him at merrylands station and i did. He told me to turn left when i left the station and thats just what i did. i couldnt see him, he then got frustrated and told his friend to talk to me. Aiden said "How the hell do you not know merrylands? You live in fairfield" I yelled at him saying its not my fault i dont know merrylands. I havent ever been there before and i dont plan to. Anyway we then left merrylands and went to Parra. I went into Gloria Jeans and got drinks anddd checked my shifts.. We then headed for city beach and i told my boss that i didnt get paid. I feel so bad sometimes cause he looks so stressed already and im adding more to his pile. :(
So that was accomplished. Aaaaaaaaandd then we went back to Aidens house.. Hung out, Ate snitzel with some vegies... Andddd then left to parra again. Where we went to Coffee Emporium and got coffee and a custard donut. We shareed that. It was nice. And thats where our arguement started. We had an arguement a couple of nights ago. And i mentioned that what he said to me hurt me. And that i was upset. He told me i heard him wrong and that i should move on. I couldnt. Then he told me that a girl named Angelica (works at city beach as well) texted him a message..
SAYING.....
"I MISS YOUR HEAD"
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.
Sounds a bit funny. BUT WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK.
Aiden doesnt believe me when i say she wants him.. But now he thinks im right. He was so blind to see it.. But i saw it all along. He thought she wasnt interested. Bullshit. THe way she only said hi to him when we saw her, I even tried to be nice and said hi but she totally ignored me. Yeah you might think im overly jealous or whatever but i would never say
"I miss your head" to someone elses boyfriend. Thats just wrong of me. And it upsets me so much because Aiden thinks im wrong and just thinking up stuff but im not! Now he believes me that she likes him.
Thats another reason why we fought.
what he said to me on the phone made me upset was
"You'll be all by yourself, with no-one to hug" - i said to him.
"no i wont, i'll have two girls that you said wants me, to hug" He said to me.
that hurt me so much. All he heard was the dial tone. And all i had were tears.
I DONT DESERVE THIS.
Fuck this is bullshit. And a friend told me Jealousy ruins a relationship, and that Aidens mine not hers, but i cant help to think that his totally right.
Someone tell me what to do. Should i be angry that Angelica said that or should i let it go to save my almost-a-year-relationship?
IM STRESSED.
KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL MEEEEEEEE .
Take me away to JAPANNNN BLAKEEEEE!!!
Idk. I feel like i cant talk to anyone.. And i know people are there for me, but theyre either offline or i dont have their number.
I wish i could just get away from this troublesome life for a bit.
Today, school.
Hospitality was good. Im liking it because Im doing good. lol But not so good in english,. Im afraid about the half yearlys for english. Because i suck at essay writing. So ELENA!! TUTOR ME!! PLEEEEEEEEEEEEASEE
LOL
Then Aiden called me to meet him at merrylands station and i did. He told me to turn left when i left the station and thats just what i did. i couldnt see him, he then got frustrated and told his friend to talk to me. Aiden said "How the hell do you not know merrylands? You live in fairfield" I yelled at him saying its not my fault i dont know merrylands. I havent ever been there before and i dont plan to. Anyway we then left merrylands and went to Parra. I went into Gloria Jeans and got drinks anddd checked my shifts.. We then headed for city beach and i told my boss that i didnt get paid. I feel so bad sometimes cause he looks so stressed already and im adding more to his pile. :(
So that was accomplished. Aaaaaaaaandd then we went back to Aidens house.. Hung out, Ate snitzel with some vegies... Andddd then left to parra again. Where we went to Coffee Emporium and got coffee and a custard donut. We shareed that. It was nice. And thats where our arguement started. We had an arguement a couple of nights ago. And i mentioned that what he said to me hurt me. And that i was upset. He told me i heard him wrong and that i should move on. I couldnt. Then he told me that a girl named Angelica (works at city beach as well) texted him a message..
SAYING.....
"I MISS YOUR HEAD"
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.
Sounds a bit funny. BUT WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK.
Aiden doesnt believe me when i say she wants him.. But now he thinks im right. He was so blind to see it.. But i saw it all along. He thought she wasnt interested. Bullshit. THe way she only said hi to him when we saw her, I even tried to be nice and said hi but she totally ignored me. Yeah you might think im overly jealous or whatever but i would never say
"I miss your head" to someone elses boyfriend. Thats just wrong of me. And it upsets me so much because Aiden thinks im wrong and just thinking up stuff but im not! Now he believes me that she likes him.
Thats another reason why we fought.
what he said to me on the phone made me upset was
"You'll be all by yourself, with no-one to hug" - i said to him.
"no i wont, i'll have two girls that you said wants me, to hug" He said to me.
that hurt me so much. All he heard was the dial tone. And all i had were tears.
I DONT DESERVE THIS.
Fuck this is bullshit. And a friend told me Jealousy ruins a relationship, and that Aidens mine not hers, but i cant help to think that his totally right.
Someone tell me what to do. Should i be angry that Angelica said that or should i let it go to save my almost-a-year-relationship?
IM STRESSED.
KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL MEEEEEEEE .
Take me away to JAPANNNN BLAKEEEEE!!!
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