Your what ive been looking for...

Heyyyyyyyyyy There..

So school was another okay day.
In music we were practicing for our music performance due wednesday, and some chicks had High School Musical playing on tv cause they wanted to do a song from there. The task was to perform a song from a movie.
And "What ive been looking for" By sharpay and .. her brother.... was showing.. Ahhaha. And Kim and I sung with it. .AHhaha. And did all these funny actions...
Then i got up and tried to imitate sharpay. ROFLLLLLLLLLLLL.
yeahh.

AND THE WEATHER IS SO FUCKING COLLLLLDDD!
uhhhhhhhhhh i cant handle it anymore. I feel like my boobs are going to freeze and drop off. ahahhah..... Not literally.

So ive got a maths trigonometry exam tomorrow.and ive got to study for it.... GAYYYYYYYY..
OH OHHHHHH OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
GUESS WHAT!!!????












its my birthday......

















on fridayyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ohh yeahh. SIXTEEEENTH.!

But im not doing anythingg. so dont get your hopes up.. Be getting your hopes up for 18th dudeeeees!

I think my brothers getting me perfume cause he asked me what i wanted and he said if i wanted perfume i was like.. Yeahh, i dont mind just get me whatever....
*thumbs up*
Ahahha.
Anyway.. Im just burning gossip girl from kim, and watching themm.
Soo i'll talk to you guys laterrr!!


OVER AND OUUUT!!!
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Lenny.

This has got me crying from laughter...

that is freaking hilarious.
if you havent figured who that is yet,
its kiki kannibal.
Yeah shes pretty and everything.
Im not saying shes ugly. And yeah everyone has their own reasons to hate her.
Im not hating on her but i rekon the whole she brought back the stripes shit is ...just ...no Kiki
NO.
Whoever drew this pic.

KUDOS!!!

Fresh till' Death Baby.

Fear me dear, for i am Death...

Bring Me The Horizon - For Stevie Wonder's Eyes Only

It's 3:18, mouth tastes like the corpse of every pregnant teen,
The minutes are hours, the hours are days,
I feel infected by your presence, you speak in tounges,
I smell the lies dancing on your blackened lungs,

I whispered in her ear:
Fear me dear, for I am Death,
I'll take your hope, your dreams, your love,
Till there's nothing left

I whispered in her ear:
You better fear me dear, for I am Death,
And I'll take that shit you call a life,
And I'll see them fucking break

I'll take your hope,
I'll take your fucking dreams,
I'll take your love,
I'll take everything you fucking bitch,

I'll steal the diamonds from your eyes,
I'll turn your promises into lies,
I'll steal the diamonds from your eyes,
I'll turn your promises into lies,

It's 3:18, mouth tastes like the corpse of every pregnant teen,
The hours are days, the days are dead,
I feel infected by your presence, you speak in tounges,
I smell the lies dancing on your blackened lungs,

I hear the fear in your voice, but you shouldn't feel a thing,
Your life's already worse than any pain that I could bring,
That I could bring,
That I could bring,

I could make it December every day,
But you're so blind, it may as well be May,

And I whispered in her ear:
You better fear me dear, for this is Death
And I whispered in her ear:
Fear me, 'cause I am Death

One more time,

I whispered in her ear:
Fear me dear, for I am Death,
I'll take everything you ever loved

I whispered in her ear:
You better fear me, for I am Death.
For I am Death.
For I am Death

Bitch

I need A life. seriously.

Couch.
Garage.
Ipod.
Nintendo DS.

BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

Goshhh. someone take me out pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I asked my parents
me:- "CAN WE GO SOMEWHERE!? ITS SOOOO BORING!"

mum: -"Aldi?"

me: - "MUMMM! NOOOOOOOOOOO WAYYY. Uhh you suck. Your boring."

Then i left.
GODAMMMIT.
LIFE TAKE ME SOMEWHERE PLEASEEEE!!!!

Anywayyyy im very very very boreddd.
But i can talk and text Aiden anytime i want thanks to Virgin! CAUSE ITS FREEEEEE!!!
lollll yeah were cheapos. Get over it.
So we talked on the phone till 4am.
Okay so we didnt talk, just sort of fell into and woke up from sleeps.
It was weird. I was sooooooooooooooo tired.
But anyway my blogs are boring yes.
send me hate mails about it.
I'll just laugh. :D

SOOOOOOOOOOO TALK TO YOU LATER!!

I LOVE AIDEN.
♥

THE BEARER OF BAD NEWS.

I MIGHT BE MOVING TO FUCKING QUEENSLAND.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.





SHIT NO.
NOO.
NAH-UH.
NOT HAPPENING.
FUCKING HELL NOO.
ID RATHER DIE THEN LIVE UP THERE.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.

BUT NOTHINGS DECIDED TILL I FINISH SCHOOL.
SOOOOOOOO LETS JUST HOPE I NEVER FINISH SCHOOOL THEN.

*CRIES*
I cant leave all the wonderful people ive grown to know here in sydney.
I JUST CANT DO IT.

"OVER MY DEAD BODY"


FULL FUCKING STOP

The Birds And The Bees

No need to worry, im calm... ;]]

Pretty happy.
Im deciding whether to claim my youth allowance now or get a job instead of the allowance.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Cause me and aiden both need jobs.. and we were thinking of working at the same place..

disasters your best friend, take it from me im still a mess says:
yeah and ill probly grab ur butt whilst ur talking to customers
LENNY. ♥ -We'll hold hands and let the world fall beneath our feet. says:
HAHHAHAHH. I can imagine that.. And then you run away and i'll be like "Sorry about that, as i was saying this is an exquisite product. BLAH BLAH BLAH" Then i'll get you later :P

So yeahhhhhh ahha that'll be an interesting job. lol
Its almost my 16th birthday soooooooooon!!
cant wait for that..
Not sure if im having a house party or what not....

ohh but im in the mood for posting some BMTH/OLI icons!!
sooooo enjoy!



MORE LATER!!!!

Its been a long time my friend...

ITS BEEN A MONTH AND ONE DAY!
Since ive blogged.
I forgot my password! and cbb resetting it. but write now im soooooooooooo in the mood to blog my butt off.

My lifes having its ups and down at the momment.
And right now its having its down momment.
I was chatting to Aiden on msn.
When my sister called and said that shes working on thursday day. So i couldnt use her as an excuse to go see aiden.
And i said that shes coming over friday and were going out friday night.
Soo theres a chance i might seee him friday.
He said thats terrible news cause he was so looking forward to seeing me on Thursday night.

FUCK. I always feel like im doing the wrong in this relationship.
HIS ALWAYS MAKING ME FEEL THAT.
Its hard you know.

So its going to be another day till i see him.
IF HE STILL WANTS TO FUCKING SEE ME.
IM SO FUCKING ANGRY!!
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG!?
I really miss him too.
And that i'll take every chance to see him.
Yeah thats our conversation.

(5:01 PM) LENNY. ♥:	Soooo my sister called, and she saiiiiid that shes working tomorrow. !!! But she said shes coming over on friday night.. and that were going out.
(5:01 PM) would you mind s:	do u mean
(5:01 PM) would you mind s:	im really
(5:01 PM) would you mind s:	worried
(5:01 PM) would you mind s:	now
(5:02 PM) LENNY. ♥:	I dunno if i can see you tomorrow! Cause my sisters working and i cant say i'll be at hers tomorrow for the whole day.. But i might be able to see you at night on friday night!!!
(5:02 PM) LENNY. ♥:	AT NIGHT TIMEEE!!
(5:02 PM) LENNY. ♥:	So is that good or bad news?
(5:04 PM) LENNY. ♥:	Buubb?
(5:05 PM) would you mind s:	would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: its terrible news would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: i feel would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: another day would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: fuck would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to says: am i seeing u on the weeekend?
(5:05 PM) LENNY. ♥:	!!! Umm my friends party is on saturday..
(5:05 PM) would you mind s:	ur going to a party?
(5:06 PM) LENNY. ♥:	yeah. But still dont know if i can cause it starts at 7.
(5:06 PM) would you mind s:	woah
(5:06 PM) would you mind s:	why didnft you tell me
(5:06 PM) LENNY. ♥:	I just got told today
(5:06 PM) would you mind s:	hmm k
(5:06 PM) would you mind s:	this is shit
(5:06 PM) LENNY. ♥:	Yeahhh.
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:	Another day
(5:07 PM) would you mind s:	im going to go cry okay.
(5:07 PM) would you mind s:	ill be back later
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:	NOOOO BUBB!!
(5:07 PM) would you mind s:	yes
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:	:(
(5:07 PM) would you mind s:	bye ily
(5:07 PM)	would you mind stripping of your rabbit suit bad habbits to is now Offline
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:	AIDEN!!!!!
(5:07 PM) LENNY. ♥:

And his still not talking to me on msn.
Tell me people!
What the hell did i do wrong?
I am so confused.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I AM ON THE FUCKING VERGE OF FUCKING BREAKING DOWN.
IN FACT I ALREADY FUCKING AM,.
WHY THE FUCK DOES HE DO THIS TOO ME,

I miss him.
he misses me.
And yet he goes offline and cries and doesnt talk to me or reply to any of my txts.
THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT WHEN YOUR FUCKING MISSING SOMEONE IS TOO TALK TO THEM!!
NOT FUCKING NOT TALK TO THEM CAUSE YOUR GOING TO MISS THEM THE DAY THEY CANT SEE YOU.


WHY IS THIS ALL HAPPENING.
I CANT DEAL WITH THIS RIGHT NOW.
My fucking parents know about aiden.
And this is all so much.
His not freaking helping either.
Always getting angry at the little things i say wrong or didnt tell him about.
Im saying "Fuck" awefully alot.
Im just really upset and confused.
DOES HE HAVE A FREAKEN REASON TO BE FUCKING UPSET!?
He expects too much from me.
And if i dont meet his expectations..
THEN...............................................................................................





*cries*.
*dies*.

Love Will Tear Us Apart.

Okkk. So this is what i wrote while i was appearing offline, and i was figuring out what to say to aiden.

We argued about aiden dying his hair. we fight over the littlest things.. But it might be a big problem for him. so i didnt say it was something little.
Its one of those little thing couples fight over.
It was a heated moment.

Okayy. So this is what ive got to say.

I just want to let you know.

First of all.

I LOVE YOU.

I love you with all my heart and soul.

I love you so much I cannot find something to say more then “I love you”

I can only show you.

Second of all.

I hate it when we argue.

Because it’s the least thing I want most in our relationship.

It kills me when I know your hurting.

If you need to talk to someone.

Talk to me. Even if were not as strong.

Im always there, I want to let you know I care even if I’ve got nothing to say.

Third of all.

You are my world.

I know we would die for each other.

So why are we letting things get to us so easily?

I have realised we have argued 3 times this week.

And its upsetting.

I hate it when its like this. It makes me feel down.

But its something we cant avoid. Because those are the consequences we face in relationships, all we can do is stick together and overcome them.

I know it sounds majorly lame. But that’s whats on my mind.

I LOVE YOU,

TILL AN IMMORTAL MAN DIES.

Sometimes i thank MSN for being invented and sometimes i wish someone killed MSN.
The convo where we calmed down. and in the progress of making up.

not here says:
ive read it more then like alot of times and i still dont know what i should say
not here says:
in a good way tho
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
hey sorry.
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
yeah. so it was just hard at moments.. But i know we can make it.
not here says:
im scared ur gna leave me
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
:o *hug*aww babe. I would never.
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
Im was afraid your going to leave me.
not here says:
i would never. honestly "without you is something that i could never do"
not here says:
i love you so much, youve become a part of me now, and im just so scared of loosing you
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
my biggest fear would be loosing you. "I wont give in, i cant give up on this love" Im going to hold on to you so tight, and never let you go cause i can possibly not live without you.
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
You are so special, and i feel like the luckiest girl on the earth, to know i have your heart. You've won me over from the moment we kissed. "You know i love you i really do"
not here says:
heleny im speechless i cant find anywords to reply to that.
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
You dont have to say anything, Just know that you mean the world to me (L)
not here says:
i no, and you no you mean the same back to me right?
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
yes
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
i know
not here says:
im sorry i cant think of anything good to say
LENNY. ♥ -Every Darkness I'll Shine Through. says:
no its okay.
not here says:
...............................
not here says:
i cant think
not here says:
seriously im just staring at the computer screen
not here says:
and nothings coming to mind to say to measure up to what u jst said to me

So his afraid of me leaving him.
Im so afraid of him leaving me.
i promised him i would never leave him
Seeing as promises mean alot to him.
Its a scary thought to have to say goodbye to him.
I can never possibly do that.
Its upsetting to even think about it.

Sometimes love can be an ugly thing..
You have to face the consequences that comes packed in a box with love.
You've never been in love, till youve been hurt.
Loves a bitch.


Goodbye & Goodnight.
xxxxx
♥
Lenny

It hurts....

IT FUCKING HURTS TO HEAR YOU SAY YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.


IT FUCKING HURTS THAT YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT. AND IVE DONE ALL THE WRONG IN THIS RELATIONSHIP.


IT FUCKING HURTS YOU DONT BELIEVE ME THAT I WOULD NEVER CHEAT ON YOU.


IT FUCKING HURTS THAT YOU CAN MAKE ME CRY.


IT FUCKING HURTS WHEN IM ON THE VERGE ON BREAKING DOWN AND SCREAMING MY HEART OUT.




ALL BECAUSE OF YOU.

Why are you like this? Tell me. Theres a reason why im here.

I need something to take my mind off things. Here are some more pics & Icons.







YEAHHHHH.
I really just feel like shit.
His such an asshole sometimes.

Your Face Down Now.

Currently listening to:
Hope Dies Last-I Belong To The Skies
"She said I'll never give you a chance
This is just another heartache"

Okks so ive calmed down alot today.. + yesterday.
Me and Aiden are fine now :) We've cooled down.. and yeahh i hope we never bring up those subjects ever again.

yesterday i spent the whole day watching The Oc Season 3..
I was so bored.. so yeah just came home from school and watched it..
Goddam how i wish i lived in Orange County.
The Beach, the boys, the schools WITH LOCKERS.
loll
And yeahh just kept watching The Oc till 11. Then went to bed.

Today however..
Was another ok day.... Drama was good. still continued with our rag dolls.
:) Arts in the Dark..
NEXT WEDNESDAY AT 7PM. (i think) IN THE G BLOCK AREA.
Buy tickets!
Theme: Romeo & Juliet

Soooo yeah :) thats that. My whole day was quite boringg. I came home from schoool and mum asked what i wanted to eat? and i felt like Pizza soo yeah we had that :)
Now im blogging on a full stomach.. with the aftertaste of Pizza and Pepsi in my mouth.

what are you guys up too?
im totally bored and dunno what to do.
Anyone want to recomment me some sites??
lol
Ohhh and what did you think of my "A pictures worth a thousand words" blogg.
You like? Tell me if you do, and i'll have some blogs dedicated to the loved ones ;]]]]]]]
haha yeahh im a bit tired.... Uhh
Anyways over and OUT!

xxxxxxxxxx
Goodbye&Goodnight
♥

Lenny

A piece of me slipped away.

THIS FUCKING HURTS LIKE HELL.

LOVE HURTS.

IT KILLS APART OF YOU.

MAKES YOU CRY DAY&NIGHT.

WHENEVER YOU FIGHT.

A PICTURES WORTH A THOUSAND WORDS

Yeahhh.
Soo im just in the mood for posting icons & Pics
Deal with me!
ENJOOOOOYYY.






Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy thats enough for today.
Hope you guys like it!!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Goodbye & Goodnight
♥
Lennny.